Thursday, April 28, 2011
It hurts to know everyone around you conceive when u dont
My husband and I are married for almost 2 years now,we been trying to have a baby since we became boyfriend and girlfriend, we been trying for almost 3 years now with no joy.yes it hurts,so painful , every month, whenever my period arrive I cried. to the point that its affecting my emotional state, more, if people see you online, in facebook or in yahoo,old friends, classmates, will ask if I am already pregnant. I give them different answers, whether I am busy, not time, yet God hasn't given it yet,or no baby for now because I want to pursue my career, or sometimes I wont bother to answer them,or I will turn off my computer. my friends here in Maryland they all have kids,one of them has 5 months old baby girl, and she is very adorable. my friend she is now 6 months pregnant, I am actually doing a lot of defense mechanisms like reaction formation etc. Oh no! its so much emotional conflict in my part. I am crocheting the baby a blanket thinking what if its for my baby. Many people will come to me and give advises on how to make a baby. I read all the books already. I did what people told me to do. medically or myth beliefs. I tried them all. I am so stressed, that's why I cant get pregnant. people told me that lots of people tried for maximum of 15 years before they become successful,some tried for 5 year and more. people should be appreciative. they dont how it takes. some women are so lucky to conceive quick naturally with no problem.
Before Meal, before bed time. our prayers is asking for a baby. boy or girl it doesn't matter as long as its healthy. we are going to be the happiest couple in the world.
After 18 months of continuous trying we decided to take the next step which is IUI (intrauterine insemination) We did it in Walter Reed Army Medical Center in Washington DC. an hour and half drive from our home. its a big project. we started getting ready about November last year. before we begin the IUI, we needed to undergo to a different series of tests, like HSG,they visualized if I have blockage,different procedure for instance the Pelvic Ultrasound to make sure I do not have polyps growing or cyst because Fertility drugs and IUI procedure itself will make it worst. they are making sure that we are both healthy and capable to undergo this procedure.
We are qualified to do an IUI, we are given three try. The first IUI was done in Feb. 20,2011. a male doctor done the procedure. it was holiday that time. but the IVF and IUI are open for the people who will be doing the IUI. the procedure starts by taking oral medication, a fertility drug (Clomephene/clomed).Clomiphene is used to induce ovulation (egg production) in women who do not produce ova (eggs) but wish to become pregnant (infertility). Clomiphene is in a class of medications called ovulatory stimulants. It works similarly to estrogen, a female hormone that causes eggs to develop in the ovaries and be released.